Diabetes is a group of metabolic diseases in which a person has high blood sugar, either because the body does not produce enough insulin, or because cells do not respond to the insulin that is produced. This high blood sugar produces the classical symptoms of frequent urination, increased thirst and increased hunger as defined by wikipedia.
However, if this disease only set me up to have a bathroom pass everywhere I go with a tall glass of water and a bag of food, it would be a breeze.
Today I am frustrated. Is frustrated the right word? My blood sugars will not go down and when they are slightly close to a goal blood sugar reading, I get hungry…but forget hunger, I want good blood sugars, I want to hang out with friends and not feel anxious of where my blood sugars are, I do not want to be afraid to eat carbohydrates, I want to have focus to read a book and gosh darnit I want to sleep. And I think my fiance does too.
I have been sketching everything down like a mad scientist – what time I am eating, what my blood sugar is, what am I eating, am I stressed, am I hydrated, when did I exercise, should I exercise, should I not exercise (that can sometimes cause blood sugars to go up), do I have ketones, did my food get cross-contaminated with gluten (gluten spikes my blood sugar among other things), how is my insulin pump, is the insulin absorbing right, do I have my insulin pump site in scar tissue…..I could go mad and I might, but…
I choose to carry on. I choose to hold my head high, stay positive, not hold back, look for areas I can improve and accept that diabetes is a disease.
Diabetes is a disease. And when it is out of control I cannot make it my fault.
So this diabetes micro-management is not a bad joke, I cannot walk away from it. I shall make every mischief or challenge an opportunity and reach out to any readers that have diabetes or family/friends of someone who has diabetes and let you know that diabetes will take a ride of its’ own sometimes and you cannot get depressed and think it is your fault.
Stay positive, seek your doctor’s advise as needed and go back to basics when those blood sugars do not want to fall. Test often, drink water always, change insulin injection sites and strive for optimism and not perfection.
“Nature, time and patience are three great physicians.” – H.G. Bohn
Cheers to you and good health.